My name is Matthew Briscoe. I am a 23 year old Transgender musician from Sacramento California. I’ve lived here my whole life and I’m ready to travel and share my story.
My whole childhood I always knew I was different and so did my mom (moms always know). I identified as lesbian most of my life but always felt like something was still missing. I didn’t really know what being transgender was until I was 16 and even then I was still trying to figure out who I was as a person. When I was 18 years old I moved to Arizona to get away from my old life and to get a fresh start, it was in that time of my life when I realized who I was. Still afraid to come out I kept it to myself until I was 20 years old. I told my two best friends first and as time went on I told all of my other friends. I let another year go by before I told my mom and the rest of my family. As always they were very supportive and loving. Right away they started working on the correct pronouns and calling me by my name.
Starting testosterone was something I put off for awhile because I was afraid it would ruin my voice and I wouldn’t be able to become the musician I’ve always dreamed of becoming. Seeing other trans stories made me realize that if losing my voice is the price I have to pay to be happy in my own skin then so be it. My family told me “you’ve trained yourself to sing before. It may never be the same. But you can train your voice again.” At first my voice was gone and I got discouraged and didn’t pick up my guitar for a few months. But as time went on my voice started to even out and started to have potential. Music is a dream I will never give up on.
I’ve been on Testosterone for 9 months as of April 12th 2018 and I’m feeling the best I’ve ever felt. My music is back on track and I have an amazing support system. Although life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, there is still judgement in the world. I still struggle everyday with being called by the wrong pronouns and being looked at because people are “confused” when my ID says one thing but my appearance says another. I just have to remember to take it one day/step at a time and focus on me and my own opinion of myself.
My goal with my music is to inspire and motivate kids in the LGBT community to be happy and proud of who they are. My mom always raised my siblings and I to be who we are with no cares in the world and to pay no mind to what anyone else had to say.
At the end of the day your happiness and wellbeing is the most important thing. I still have a long way to go, but I’m on my way to being the man I was meant to be. And to anyone who is struggling and feeling like it’s impossible, just know it does get better and it does get easier. Just with a little time, patience and hope.
Don’t lose hope.