"My name is Brailon English. I am a two spirit blackfoot man from Canada. I have long wondered about my gender since I was very young, often opting to play as male characters during play time. I always wondered what it would be like to be a boy, but I never had the language to describe what I was feeling. Fast forward to my teen years, when I first discovered cosplay and visual kei.
I learned that I loved dressing up as male characters a little too much, and the androgyny of visual kei greatly appealed to me. It was when I was in my 20's, after experimenting with they/them pronouns, that I knew I was transgender. I knew because I had a friend at the time who was going through his own transition, and he gave me a packet of resources and information and questionares for trans men. I identified with all of it. From there, I sought out the help of a wonderful therapist who further helped me through my feelings on gender identity.
My family was apprehensive and shocked at first, and many hurtful conversations ensued, making me question whether or not I was making the right decision. But here I am today, at age 25, 7 months on testosterone and the happiest I've ever been. I have never felt so alive than I do now that I'm medically transitioning. I am waiting to get on a list for top surgery. I am still seeing my therapist regularly. My family has come to terms with my transition and has fully accepted who I am. I even began to dance in a male style of traditional powwow dance.
I am so grateful for everything I've been through up until now. I am so glad I've finally discovered who I am and where I belong in the world."